My first thought this morning wasn’t the usual “Mornin’ Jesus!”. Something was off. Something was wrong. It continued until mid-morning. I was feeling the familiar grip of depression wrap around me. I woke up feeling despondant. It continued until after arriving at work. Part of the way through the monring I found a pause, so I asked Him what was going on. It had been a considerable amount of time since these feelings were creeping around.
Over the last couple of days I’ve been not wanting to take care of myself, my music taste had changed back to my “B.C.” flavor. Over-all things were becoming gloomy again, like high school gloomy. After arriving at work for the day the gloom continued as it was raining outside. The baby was congested and warm; screaming at me for comfort. I got to a break in my morning and got a chance to sit with Jesus for a bit. Forces were starting to work on me. He told me what to pray, so I did. A little while later “Cast your Cares” came to mind and the sun came out.
The day got brighter, I got lighter. The baby got better (she did have some ibuprofen too, but it should be worn off by now.) She’s not screaming, but playing and not coughing. Smiling. The clouds are coming back around, the weather app said they would, but it’s not affecting my mood like this morning.
It’s Intreguing how the one to shift your focus to when the day is rough can seem so far away when just the thought of His name gets his attention.
Robin Grooms 